my day starts to get better during the evening time. cuz i told my boss about my failed exam n can't bring myself to tell her i wanna quit the job. she told me i could take off to study for my exam. so i am off from next monday onwards.
i hope this time eveything will be fine cuz.. i can't afford any changes in my plan anymore. it's making me mentally tired and lose confidence in whatever things i'm going to do in future.
yonatan is as lovely as usual, making an effort to send me msg while he's oversea. but will he still be able to do this and our heart will be able to stay as close still when he go back to his normal old life?
I doubt myself.
I doubt myself for believing he can do that.
For I no longer the old Tina who believes her love one easily like she used to.
It's just when you think you've found the love n destined one of your life and intended to spend your whole life with him, he suddenly turned his back to you and left you half-hanging alone.
I can never forget how hard and terrible it was for me to break up with such a man. A man who I wanted to marry so much. Till now, he is still the only guy who makes me feel that i want to marry to him.
rants~ i feel so fustrated right now.
why does some men have to make things so complicated? Do things to prove it when you said you love someone. N i mean significant and in a good way. Something like, you love someone then make a poetry or a song about that special one, do something you never done b4 for that someone to show how special she is to you. There must always be something you never done b4 to others and you can do to show how important and special she is to you.
starts from small thing like a hand-made card or buying flowers or others... no matter how bad your art n craft is, or how cheap n ugly the flower is, just do it cuz it might happen to cheer her day and you can always have room to improve.
Some men can't keep promises then don't make promises easily! We hate people who break their promises. Just tell us honestly with an apology, sorry i can't make any promise to you. That's it, n we will understand. In case we don't, too bad, you're not the one we looking for as a bgr candidate.
There's just so much things i can write down like mistakes made when you're in a relationship or dos n don'ts in a relationship or dating guide to dummy boys etc etc.
N if i were to do that, I think, it probably took me years to produce something like what i mentioned above.
I'm going to bed now. nitey nitex~
凌晨12:18
