i've been sick for weeks... fever, fever... cough... den no voice... den voice slowly come back.. cough... cough.. and cough... this is the 1st time i am sick for so long... haix... i got served~ and i was like possessed like that... couldn't stop working.. and can't stop making myself tired... tireness is like a routine to me... i can't control myself...
finally...
i am sick...
this leaves me no choice but to quit my part time job... and took 3 days MC... and still cannot rest well... projects.. reports... quizes... for the past few weeks...
finally again...
next week is term test... i will be mugging like a nerd for the weekends and next week... i muz do well and score well...
sometimes... i don even understand myself... i don understand... why i'm still... still hoping for miracles to appear... why am i still waiting for someone who will never talk to me again..
i am fine and strong... i will not let anyone worry about me anymore... it's my responsibility that my life have become so messy... i'm really quite a failure in life... so i'm trying to live my own life peacefully and getting it back to the right track... i think... i have lost the ability to love someone already...
