此時此刻的我.很想去死...
這樣,我就可以不再在乎你...
我也不會這麼痛苦了...
我一直求我自己,千萬不要哭...
可是不行...我辦不到...
我真的做不到...
眼淚不聽使喚的掉下來...
我很努力的要自己堅強...堅強...再堅強...
我很明白也很清楚, 以前的自己太傻也太笨... 多次為了不值得的男人而放了很多感情...
結果,每次受傷的都是自己...
我要改變我的命運... 真正值得的男人是不會放棄我, 也不會嫌棄我的男人...
可是, 現在的我雖然很明白這一點...但是為什麼, 我還是...還是...不能釋懷...
為什麼, 你放棄了我?
晚上8:39
我去做头发了！！！！
Dear all,I've finally went to a salon and have my hairstyle changed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!heee... ^-^vspent total 82bucks there...20plus on their hair products...59 for the digital spa perm...done it at Yishun branch of Belong Salon...they got 40% discount for all hair services till 31Oct2007so I grabbed the chance to perm my hair :)the whole perming took me 4hrs plus.. and the curlers and the machine quite heavy... sat there till my backache, headache...but who cares... as long as i got my perm done nicely by the hairstylist...hee...he quite metriculous about which type of perm effect he think will look nice on me...so overall, i'm quite satisfied lo... my hair is not dead and dry at the end of the whole session too..think i'll be going back for colouring after i get my salary in early nov...As for sch, so far so good lo...Get to study the electives i've chosen...and know more frenz too...well... it's my last sem and i don't wanna screw it... so I will WORKＨＡＲＤ！！！Gambatteru~Aim to score not just pass...that's what my fren have encourage me!!!my final yr project is mostly done.. soon to be finish too~ am so so glad abt it!I must have confidence and believe i myself that I can get good grades!!! although no money to study U but i will try my best to get a part time degree ~ so I must work hard study hard to reach my goal!!! :)because that's the only thing i can do now...pics will be upload below.. :D我終於去做頭髮了!哈哈~想要去燙頭髮是因為沒有做過所以想要去嘗試看看拉~燙了過後覺得效果還蠻好看的呢~原價是85塊,40%折扣後變成59塊了...我還買了他們的定型幕斯和營養髮油所以總共花了82塊~辛苦工作了一陣子,現在是寵自己的時候了...過了一星期後,拿到全部薪水了再去染頭髮!!!這樣我的捲髮就會更好看了...好開心喔~那個幫我弄頭髮的髮型師還蠻細心的,還一直幫我想哪一種大小的捲適合我...燙出來的頭髮也不會很乾燥...所以很滿意喔~只是,在那邊坐了好久到腰酸背痛,頭也痛了...因為那個捲和機器都好重喔~可是愛美就只好忍耐了~至於學校啊~普普通通咯～如我所愿的讀我之前選的科目...也認識很多好笑的朋友..我的實習也差不多要做完了所以蠻輕鬆的...我會繼續努力讀書的...我想要在最後的學期考好成績,雖然沒錢念大學, 可是我會努力的報讀兼職文憑...我會努力的!就如我在溫哥華的朋友說的,不只是要及格,也要考好成績!!!因為, 我現在也只能做這些了...待兒會~就要po照片了~~~
PS:我要讓你知道,你的放棄,是值得的...因為我會努力做到你要看到的東西...可是, 我們, 不可能再在一起了... 因為,是你要我改變自己...變到,我完全不認識自己了...有些東西,你丟掉了,就再也回不來了...雖然,心是不變, 但是就是自己再也無法承受這種傷害了...我學會了保護自己, 放下對你的執著...1個月多了...你知道嗎?
晚上11:52
日不落
雨後的天空, 放晴了...
可並不是每次都有彩虹的出現...
我暫時, 還不是很期待會出現彩虹...
只盼望, 天空會一直是晴朗清爽的就好了...
彩虹啊~你就先躲著, 先別出來...
待我有更多勇氣, 更堅強如從前時, 再和我來個美麗的邂逅吧~ ;)
loves working in causeway point breadtalk...
the staffs there are just so nice and great to mix around...
school is starting in next week...
after this semester, officially, i'll be a working adult...
and i must behave like an adult..
bear in mind, tina tang~
;)
life will definitely be better than before...
and i have to believe in that...
life have to go on...
fighting~~~\(*O*)/
happy birthday to pretty teng siew furn... haa..
下午1:09
過敏
"我想我
才了解
就算用盡了力氣也未必如願
季節沒改變是眼淚弄濕臉
季節一直變但我的心沒有變"
-楊丞琳<<過敏>>
忽然間, 聽見了這首歌...
心里只想起了一個人
知道自己不該抱著或奢求什麼希望的...
可是, 還是無意間想起了他
心是酸酸, 疼痛的
也是麻痺的...
算了吧~
這樣也好, 我是不該牽制那個人的...
讓他自由, 做他想做的事, 讓他能快快樂樂的過生活
就好了...
讓那個我熟悉認識的他, 繼續活在我心底的最深處, 一直到永遠...
這樣, 我們的承諾就兌現了...
誰也不欠誰...
我...
等賺到了錢,就會買那些包包之類的, 來換替你送我的東西...
因為決定了... 不能再任性的想你, 思念你, 期待你了...
反正你都沒連絡我了, 我還盼望那麼多會有用嗎?
都已經過去了...
我一定要不斷的提醒自己這一點~
加油XXXX!!!我可以做到的~加油!!!
晚上11:33
