I need to complain about myself~
Because...
I don't take too much pictures of Jonatan... and now that I'm missing him, I have nothing to look at~ :X
So, I am mad about myself... stupid Tina~ BAKA@@@
It's oky~ I'll get him to be my model on our next off day~ teehee~ ^-^v
This boyfriend of mine, possess very funny and cute characters~ soon to be attached for 2 mths... he never failed to make my days whenever we're together. I guess, he'll probably be the nicest and polite and hilarious and tall(183cm!) and smart and charismatic boyfrien I'd ever have. But! He got his imperfections too!!! Those bad points that I thought I couldn't accept last time... Now I don't give a care to it~
So? What's going on in me? hahaa..
I really wonder how long we can last? Cuz, I don't have much confidence in our love. He even told me he could stay and study n live in Singapore here~ As long as I'm happy. However, that's not what I want. I don't want to make him feel he ought to do it just for me. We're still young. We have a lot of things to accomplish before we decided to settle down. Although if he really stay and study n live here I will be more than ever happy, but that's not the way it should be!
Say that I'm weird or strange or whatever, I just think that we should go ahead with what our plan was previously and not to let anything interrupt it just becaue we're together.
I guess, I really fall in love with him and want him to be happy more than anything.
晚上10:27
This is something I've found from the internet.
You gotta take the good
With the bad,
Smile with the sad,
Love what you got,
&& remember what you had,
But never forget,
Learn from your mistakes,
But never regret.
People change, things go wrong.
But just remember
Life goes on.
Nowadays~ I keep thinking that my life is always not what I expected.
Life keep on surprising me with new things, new events, new people everytime.
It somehow makes my life exciting and have something to look for each day.
Becuz a lot of things happened in my life always took place when I wasn't expecting anything at all. So, no matter it is a good or bad one happened, I still thank god, if there's any or fate or sth that makes my life become colourful with different type of people.
I have a bad attitude towards life previously.
I'm sorry but I promised that I will treasure my life and myself more now and then.
I've learnt to take things easily. Learnt not to add pressure in love anymore. Although there's bound to be some when two different type of people in love with each other. I've learnt not to whine about small things and look at things with different perspective.
I think my maturity of being in 20yrs old and 21yrs old will be the same.
And I think life will be much greater and better as time goes by.
And I yearned for independant from my parents.
Being able to live, travel and taking care of myself w/o their help.
Not saying that I don't love them but it's more towards because I love them that's why I need to do so.
I am responsible for my life, my happiness, my own expenses.
I can't always listen to them becuz in the future I'll still need to face everything myself.
It's because I love them that's why I need to be independant outside and away from them.
It's time for them to see how their beloved daughter transformed from a catepillar to a butterfly.
My yearning for this independant is getting more and more stronger each day.
Perhaps next yr, I'll have an ans to it soon.
ferris wheel~ i'm coming tomorrow~ :)
晚上7:48
