Troubles and Goals
I had a bad day today, and I don't wish to talk about it. Anyway, it's regarding my job. So, that's it, don't bother to ask me anymore. Whenever I think of it, I just feel like punching my boss!
My gastric problem coming back again. I don't understand why. Cuz I got eat food and putting on weights! It's like back during my secondary school old days, eat already also makes no improvement to my problem. If this is so, I might as well don't eat.
Recently, I couldn't sleep well too. I keep on getting insomia and I also don't know what going on with me! Cuz it is so obvious that I am tired and I just couldn't sleep.
oky~ enough of that!
I just watched 'What Happened In Vegas' yesterday with someone. :)
The movie is great~ Especially the last few scenes where Ashton knelt down and proposed again to Cameron Diaz. It was sooooooooo soooooooooo romantic and the little girlie inside my soul was fluttering and it was like "awwwwwwww~ so sweet! so romantic! :)" hahah. it's funny~
I've been given the problem of wanting something soooo badly but I know I couldn't have it my way. It's about relationship. Everything is crazy. The story goes like this. One mth ago, I knew this Israeli cute guy out of a sudden in MRT. We had the most funny and ridiculous conversation and both of us were just joking. And, we leave down both of our contact number. I gave him mine becuz I felt that it's nice having a foreign friend as their lifestyle is soo much different from us and I'm curious about it and just wanted to broaden my view about this world. This chance is sth not we can chance by everyday in our daily life as we are not living aboard. Therefore, I left him my contact number out of good intention. Ever since that day, we've been msging and went out together quite a few times. Movies, Dinners etc etc. The feeling is nice whenever I'm with him. I really like him cuz he's just so nice to me~ :)
But, he's leaving Singapore in another 2 mths!
He need to go back to his country to finish his degree which will probably take like 3 to 4 yrs.
So, no matter how much we like each other now, everything will change when he went back to his country for yrs! The relationship will not last.
What am I going to do? I'm not planning to go after him to his country and I don't want to do that. At least not this or next yr. I've got my friends, my family here. They've been great to me ever since I broke up with someone last yr when my heart was truly broken.
I want to be with my friends and family, and I also want to be with him too.
I really have no confidence in long distance relationship anymore. Totally NO!
Most probably I still continue to go out with him and have our own fun while he still here. And by the time he go back to his country, I will be crying away and sad again for a few months or so and then back to my normal self. I can't stop myself from going out with him, cuz he've done nth wrong to me and he's always being sweet and caring to me. I guess my life just have to go through this way.
The presence of this guy changes my life. He makes me realise how blessing we singaporean are being able to live in a country like this where there's lots of people suffering outside Singapore.
And, he increased my interest to step out of Singapore, step out of South East Asia to go outside and see the world. I think this is sth I wanna do when I graduate this yr. I'm not saying I'm going to his country but to other much much more different countries like Africa, America, Brazil, Argentina, Europe etc for unexpected experience of life.
And most importantly, I think this idea of mine is great. Cuz I feel this is what I should do. See the world. Earn money to go see the world. Live your life with no regrets.
Yeah~ So, I reckoned this will be my goal for this and next yr~ :)
下午6:13
It's gonna be a long long entry
It's time to update again~
I reckoned I'm just gettin' too lazy and busy to update this blog and everything just seems to be dead... Haha~
As a request from VANI, I'll try my best to write each entry with English in the future．
So, let's go back to the my memory and see what I've been up to these days.
As far as I can remember, I've attend a poly mates chalet in DowntownEast, Pasir Ris on the 28, 29 and 30 Apr 08.
Below are some pics that I've when I'm not doing anything. It's actually pretty few cuz I've been constantly busy from time to time. And I mean, like 24 hrs... Hahaha..
they were trying to start the bbq fire, in a DIY style~
finally, nice fire~
this guy, his name is Tat Wee and he dislike ppl which is like me, to take photo when he is not prepare... hahaha~ but, he's a very very nice guy cuz he cycle with me ard the pasir ris the whole night. As in those two people ride one and I don't know how to cycle so he'll have to make double efforts to ride the bic.. hahahha poor thing~
yanling and her chuan teng~
our chalet surrounding~
the part time gf gang~ taken at Pasir Ris Ehub NEBO there~
yanling n me~
Oky~ Finish with the Apr photos, here's the summary of the chalet.
I had a very fun and super tired time with them and I can't believe that our fave police and thief game only played like a few times? We went to Changi Village, Yes, the Ah Gua Village there to eat my fave dessert 'Red Tea Logan' and also admire those beautiful 'JieJies'. After that we went back to the chalet and chat through the nitex. Till the next morning, I only slept half to 1 hr and went to sch to attend lessons. And that was CRAZY because I looked simply stoned. Until like 1pm, I returned to the chalet and slept for like 2 hrs and continue our fun in chalet. I want the FREE Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream and because I have lessons to attend, I give the freebie a good missed! X_X! BBQ again for the evening and night, den May, her bf , YiWen, Jerlin and Jeffrey came. Had a good chat with them till the midnight and went for cycling around the Pasir Ris. Then, we come back and played games. Some went to sleep already and occupy the beds, leaving a few of us no choice but to sleep on the staircase or stay up cuz no place to sleep. Which the latter is some of my frenx n I... Till the next morning again, I've got place catch a few winks for 2 hrs and took TAXI back home prepared to go work!!!
So, It was crazy and insane for me and I'm pretty amazed that I've still got the energy to work till 10 plus pm after I leave the chalet pretty shag. HAHAHHA~
1st of May 08, I had got my paid which is so unfortunately is a crossed cheque! Which means I had a rich relative's wedding dinner to attend the next day and I've got no dress yet for it. So, I borrowed money from my mom to buy dress and for daily allowance the next few day.
Mom n Me in The Regent Hotel all dressed up~
Had a very very full and expensive dinner on 2 May 08 with cold lobster salads, suckling pig, shark fin n fish maw, cod fish, very big mushrooms, red wine, super tasty crispy chicken and I mean real crispy till u can hear the crisp sound when u took a bite and nice mango dessert.
During the dinner there's Jazz musical band from Japan performing and the Yes 93.3 DJ ChongQing is also there for the MC of the night. Well, what I can say? Rich people's wedding dinner... feel quite a bit boring over there.
Long entry for today~
So, after the dinner till today, I've been working and attending school in between. Went out with some frenx too. Get to know new frenx like Jonatan, an Israeli guy working in S'pore to earn money for studying. He's really really funny and full of questions about the behaviour of Singaporean and Chinese! These non-asians are very friendly as compared to us Asians. I get to know him when he asked me some questions out of sudden in MRT and was like joking with me and his frenx all the way. He used to went for back-packing that explains his easy-going with strangers I guess.
Life has been great to me up till so far. Mothers' Day just passed and I was busy working last week. Continuously making bouquets and flower arrangements non-stop. BUSY!!!
So, yesterday, when I got home, I was like... EXHAUSTED~ I've never been in contact with so many flowers and customers in my whole life. People were queing up eventually in front of the flower counter! THANK GOD~ IT'S OVER~
Now I can forsee if next year Valentine's day I'm still working this job, I will need to bring sleeping bag to Takashimaya and camp in my working place for the whole week already. HAHA~
This afternoon, I went to CauseWay Point to run an errand for my mom and mostly due to my hunger. I was like real starving when I reach there and I went straight to the food court and eat the korean meal. Later on, I did some stocking in tibits like candies, chocolates, sugar cuttlefish, yoghurts and sushi in the Cold Storage. I don't care if I put on weight and turn ugly. Cuz I'm JUST HUNGRY~ Haha.. I had a long time never eat rice already cuz I've been eating sandwiches when working and studying and a very long time never touch those tibits already.
This week have lab test, next week have small quiz and working on public holiday which is the Vesak Day~
Term Test coming soon at the beginning of June I think, have to check again.
Follow by weekly meet up with the poly gang too. This week they're gonna have seoul garden on Wed, which most likely to be on my working time. So, which means I can't go again. I don't like Seoul Garden also la.. but can't meet up quite a pity also lo...
Already told them my schedule, is they forget all about it and tell me only until today. I need to have one week notice for my boss to plan!
It's oky~ I'll make sure they remember next week.
It's late already and I have lessons and outing to attend tml.
Done with my update~ Good Nitex~
晚上10:43
