I always have things waiting for me to do, because i don't want to slow down my life...

Seriously, I don't know why am i working so hard for... I don't even have a purpose now...

I'm scared...

that if i slow down, the monsters named lonliness and sadness will eat me up in a instance...

it's so hard to move on w/o him...
but I know I had to do it...

wished i had a shoulder to cry on when i'm feeling sad right now...

and that is impossible...

everyone thinks that i'm oky... i'm a problem solver and i'm strong...

but the fact is, i'm not...

i can solve problems is because the lecturer gives me solutions and i just follow it and apply in my own way...
i may laughed like mad woman everyday it's because i'm sick and tired of people asking me why am i so sad....

i'm sick and tired of everything...

i want to be happy...

I've lost the ability to do it already...

I've finally understand how Adam felt why he told me his reason last time...

yeah... he took a pretty long time to be in a relationship again...

and i wonder how long will i need to take too?
another month?yrs? or perhaps till i pass away...

sch is great...
my project is finishing soon and will be going for many competitions...

stupid pics that i've taken few days ago...